Luckily for me the sun was shining when I woke up this morning. So, my splitting headache had a reason to run away to a more weather burdened high stress individual. Unfortunately, my homework does not share this sentiment. I have enough work to do today to keep me going till ground hogs day at least...if not the forth of july. I' m now going through the list of things and attempting to determine just what I can not do and still pass. I know this is dangerous in more ways than one, but upon the recent discovery that my body/brain is so not geared right now to walk in the halls of academia damage control and preemptive strike patterns are my primary focus. I have plenty to distract me: good friends far away, no money, lots of bills, not really sleeping, forgetting that I can say no (yeah, got that lecture again last night...you'd think I would learn), steady discoveries of who I used to be and remembering who much I loved it, constant reminders of things I would love to leave behind, and constant realizations that when I do I will have lost...when you leave things behind you don't learn from them. The strength is in walking the distance to understanding and "grok'ing" if you will. Anyone can run the course; it takes strength and a little stupidity to walk it. When you've walked the path, been cut up, burned up and hurt, you step back and learn from it and become that much stronger.
On a lighter note I can't seem to keep my pants on. They almost fell off walking to emery yesterday. This is a problem. I put another hole in the belt which has proven largely ineffective. I'm running out of belt...is this good?
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Here I go; There I go; Everywhere I go go!
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The real sad part of all this is that no matter where you go there you are. No matter how fast you run as you turn to look over your shoulder hoping to see yourself far off fading in the distance, there close behind is a face that looks like yours only this one is wearing a smirk that makes you want to throw-up! Of course there is the perspective that Captian Kirk shared with Spock and Dr. McCoy. Kirk shared shortly after Kirk rejected an offer to remove the pain in his life that he needed his pain, wanted his pain in fact because it is these things that make us who we are. We have come this distance for a reason now all we have to do is find it. As dad would say, fear not for the money we have spent thus far will pale in comparison to the money we have yet to spend. TWC
The real sad part of all this is that no matter where you go there you are. No matter how fast you run as you turn to look over your shoulder hoping to see yourself far off fading in the distance, there close behind is a face that looks like yours only this one is wearing a smirk that makes you want to throw-up! Of course there is the perspective that Captian Kirk shared with Spock and Dr. McCoy. Kirk shared shortly after Kirk rejected an offer to remove the pain in his life that he needed his pain, wanted his pain in fact because it is these things that make us who we are. We have come this distance for a reason now all we have to do is find it. As dad would say, fear not for the money we have spent thus far will pale in comparison to the money we have yet to spend. TWC
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